What's happening to me? Oh oh, I think it's already happened!

4 days of no exercise and I feel like rubbish.
This is a surprise to me.
I am only just starting to realise how important exercise is to me.

I have never considered myself to be an overly active or athletic person. Sure, I've done lots of running including half marathons and a marathon but I don't do them very fast. i just plod along and do my own thing. In our house, doing hours of exercise is actually considered normal. Although he would never admit it, Trent is a mad keen ironman triathlete. Or as I like to put it - he is totally obsessed! He has competed in 4 ironman races and I've lost count of how many half-ironmans. He is constantly training for something and ironman training means up at 4.30 every morning to either swim, ride or run before going to work. It is not uncommon for Trent to run 20km before work and he often does this multiple times in a week. Then there's training after work as well, although this has cut back a lot since we have had children. Many of our friends are also into ironman. So me going for a run every day doesn't ever really seem like a big deal.

Today I felt really awful - headache, no energy, just really flat. I really wanted to go to the gym but just couldn't fit it in to my day. Yesterday, when we decided that Poppy wouldn't go to Kindy because she was sick, I was actually pissed off that I would miss my gym session.

The feelings I have had this week have caught me by surprise. I think running might actually be part of who I am. This is a novel and strange concept. Somewhere in the last 2 or so years, running has crept into my life and I now can't imagine not doing it. Weird!