Hi ho, hi ho, it's off to the physio I go!

Matilda is 3 months old today! And it has been a wonderful 12 weeks with her in our family of four!

Lots to report since my last post.

Bootcamp is a no go. I made the decision that my body just wasn't ready for it. My mind is definitely ready and I have no doubt that I could do it, but at the end of the day, there is no hurry and it's a smarter choice to give my body as long as it needs to get right.

Went to the doctor on Friday. Her report is that everything I am feeling is completely normal. I still have quite a bit of inflammation and the feeling of looseness in my pelvic floor is not helped by the fact that I'm breastfeeding.  Apparently your body doesn't produce oestrogen when breastfeeding and thats what you need to heal fully.  She also told me that I'm not doing my pelvic floor exercises correctly. Great!  The result is that I have been given oestrogen based cream to apply twice a week and have been referred to a pelvic floor physio.  I'm happy to try both and see if it helps.  I also assume that things won't go completely back to normal until I've stopped breast feeding - and that won't be for a long time!

Good news is that exercise is more than ok as long as I don't do anything that puts pressure on the pelvic floor. You guessed it - that's running! But I knew that anyway so I've had time to come to terms with that.  I've still been going to the gym every day. Doing cardio on the bike, rower and stair master and alternating that with weights.  The cardio sessions are absolutely killing me and the last couple of sessions have left me feeling like I'm going to vomit. Must be doing something!

On a completely different note, I read something this week that said:

It takes 4 weeks for you to notice a change in your body, 8 weeks for friends to notice, and 12 weeks for the rest of the world to notice.

This gave me a grand idea that I should keep a photo record of my body over the next 12 weeks to see what happens - hopefully it will look better in 12 weeks! My idea was to take photos and put them here on my blog. That was until I saw the photos!!!! Since seeing what I actually look like (I knew I was out of shape but really????) I'm extremely nervous about showing the big wide world. I know, I know, I had a baby 12 weeks ago. I keep trying to tell myself that! 

I have decided that, in the interests of accountability and motivation, I will post the photos.  I ask you to please remember that I had a baby 12 weeks ago! So here goes......

I'm thanking my lucky stars we're heading into winter! This body is definitely NOT bikini ready......yet!