Frustration levels......all time high

I haven't posted for weeks and that's because I have had nothing to report. NOTHING! Basically everything has gone down the drain. The eating plan, the exercise regime, everything. And I'm not happy about it.

To cut a long story short, the eating plan had a really bad effect on my milk supply. I discovered that I wasn't producing nearly enough milk for Matilda and she began waking through the night for feeds. As soon as this happened, the eating plan got thrown out the window. I was always cautious about the effect it would have on my milk (see Nutrition makeover) and exclusively breastfeeding Matilda is definitely my number 1 priority. So the eating plan is no longer and this has a massive effect on my 12 week challenge (12 week challenge). So I've pretty much given up on it for now.

Add to that a back strain I got during my very first PT session. Kettlebells and medicine ball throws during my first session did some real damage to my back and I haven't been able to do anything since! That's almost 3 weeks of ZERO exercise! DISASTER

And........we received an invite to a very good friends wedding in Adelaide and it just happens to be on the same weekend as the 10km Jetty to Jetty run I have entered. Decision to go was a no-brainer (wedding trumps run every time) but that goal has also disappeared before my very eyes.

So that's where I'm at. Back is all good now so I'm back at the gym tomorrow but......

.....no idea what to do from here........

Bootcamp???

I just found out yesterday that my gym is running a 6 week bootcamp starting this Saturday morning. Should I or shouldn't I? Trent has given me the all clear but I can't decide whether I want to do it or not. I have never been too keen to do group exercise classes. I am skeptical that gym classes (step, body pump, etc) actually do anything and are full of people who go to the gym once a week just so that they can say they 'go to the gym' (yes, I'm a snob!). Perhaps if I'm honest with myself, I also avoid group classes because I'm worried I won't be able to do it, I'll be the worst one there, I'll look like an idiot, etc, etc. That fear of the unknown again strikes again.

The difference with this bootcamp is that the personal trainer who will be running it is a guy that I'd like to see what he's got. He's a successful gymnast (not sure if he's still competitive???) and this intrigues me. I often see him training people and also working out himself and I am always in absolute awe of his strength. I'd like to see if his gymnastics background makes his approach different to the normal pt sessions.

On a side not, and this has nothing to do with my decision, it's at 6am Saturday morning. Normally this would mean I'd have to get up at 5.30 to get there on time but as I am breast feeding, I'm going to have to get up even earlier so that I can express before I go! I don't think I've mentioned before that I am most definitely NOT a morning person and the thought of getting up at 5am to exercise actually makes me laugh!

So I've got a couple of days to decide. I'll keep you posted!